My face changes, masks of strength and beauty applied most liberally. Will you now believe I am a superhero? Am I now the demi-god you reverently bow before? My hands raise in benediction, raise in punishment, and the sheep cower before me, bidding me to do with them as I will. Mask the pain of uncertainty and fear with this gaudy tinsel, the gay paint, the glitter of charisma, it is all a lie yet you cannot see that. You cannot see beneath the mask, for a god, a hero you need, and your gods and heroes must be lovely and unafraid, as you choose me to be.
Look, look and see beneath your imposed disguises, peer beneath the trappings of your daydreams and acknowledge me for my own self, for the power of my fear and yearning. I pray that you let me cease these lies, and take me for who I am, alone and afraid on this throne, this pedestal, this alter. You must open your eyes, you must see me as I am, for I cannot maintain this illusion for long, or I must go mad.
Do you not see what you have done? I am not an idol, a figure, a plaything, I am real, I need what you need. Please, do not cast me aside as you do your unloved toys, the luxuries that have ceased to amuse you, the pills that no longer stifle your self-imposed pain. Please, do not raise another to my place, do not take away what little love you have given me, what little adulation you have fed me on, for shallow and foolish as it is, it is yet all I have. Do not take away the masks, the silks and velvets of worship, and leave me naked in the cold dawn, naked to the bright and cold sun that will soon rise.
Please, do not leave me to be revealed in all my pain, in all my fear, my weakness. Do not leave me stripped of all, in the sun and to the wind’s cruel mercies. I beg, I plead, you may not unmask me yet!
Triggered by a picture of Spiderman, and the constant question in my mind of "what makes a hero?". If you look through our history, so many of our superheroes, mythological figures and other legendary figures have been masked, and beautiful, without flaw or fear. But what goes on behind the mask?
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The owl cried outside as I slept, dreaming of my own death.
"Religion is for the people who are afraid of hell. Spirituality is for the ones who have already been there." ~Running Hawk, Lakota Nation
To allow for the existence of one god, we must allow for the existence of all gods.